tension giler................

this week start sem break for two weeks...everybody seem like happy but me tension gilerrrrrrrrrr.... i'm having some problem with my bestfriend which i'm the one guilty..... what i have done to her is damm terrible la...i also cannot forgive myself ........don't know what to do.....already ask for forgiveness but she still don't want to forgive me...... i feel damm terrible now until i cannot do my exam properly.... she the only my bestfriend that i have.....nice, honest n the only person that i can layan la.....how should i do? my kepala like pecah ready think about this.......... i cannot live like this.....feel like want to gile ready.... anyone can send me to tanjung rambutan???????????